The beauty of silence, is the noise of no words,
Where is the light in your deep dark room?, A shock of light could save you from the shadow.
Why is the dark behind the moon? Out of reach until the light is shattered.

jueves, octubre 08, 2015

I'm a new soul, I came to this strange world hoping I could learn a bit 'bout how to give and take

 We're not afraid of the dark--we come alive in it...we're thrilled by it. 


❥ ❣ ❦ ❧ touching the sky ❥ ❣ ❦ ❧



'cause we are not in control.  If we were, we'd surely know better than to care about anything...  


 

miércoles, agosto 19, 2015

nothing


almost



snapshot


elastic heart



 wanted to fight this war without weapons, and I will stay up through the night, I'll walk through fire to save my life 

there's only passion


fragments of souls













































































sweet and spicy


r.m.drake


martes, julio 21, 2015

so? pick a word

Daydream delusion
Limousine Eyelash
Oh, baby with your pretty face
Drop a tear in my wineglass
Look at those big eyes
See what you mean to me
Sweet cakes and milkshakes
I am a delusion angel
I am a fantasy parade
I want you to know what I think
Don’t want you to guess anymore
You have no idea where I came from
We have no idea where we’re going
Lodged in life
Like two branches in a river
Flowing downstream
Caught in the current
I’ll carry you. You’ll carry me
That’s how it could be
Don’t you know me?
Don’t you know me by now?

we're all each others' demons and angels



"Even though I reject most of the religious things I can't help but feeling for all those people that come here lost or in pain, guilt, looking for some kind of answers. It fascinates me how a single place can join so much pain and happiness for so many generations."
"I always have this strange feeling that I am this very old woman laying down about to die. You know, that my life is just her memories, or something."
 
"You are both stars, don't forget... When the stars exploded billions of years ago, they formed everything that is this world. Everything we know is stardust. So, don't forget, you are stardust...”

sábado, julio 11, 2015

grey's anatomy - you're my home

WEBBER - Okay, but research budgets are approved by one department head, not a committee.
CATHERINE - Agreed. Next point. I have a say in all the residency candidates.
WEBBER - Rejected. Never gonna happen.
CATHERINE - I gave you Valentine's day! If I have to celebrate Valentine's day, I get to review the prospective residents... 
WEBBER - And give a recommendation. Nothing more. [Catherine Sighs] I have final say. 
CATHERINE - That's fair. Next point. 
[both breathe deeply] 
WEBBER - Miranda Bailey is the next chief of surgery. 

CATHERINE - Miranda Bailey is judged against an outside candidate of my choosing. Then the board votes based on merit. 
WEBBER - [Sighs] That's... That's fair. 
CATHERINE - Agreed. Next point. 
WEBBER - Now... When we're at home, we are not at work. We leave work at the hospital. 
CATHERINE - Rejected. Totally unrealistic. Richard, our  schedules... come on! 
WEBBER - Hey, I understand, but we need some time for each o...
CATHERINE - The bedroom. No work in the bedroom. [Chuckles] Next point. 
WEBBER - I will provide a safe harbor.
CATHERINE
- What does that mean? 
WEBBER - You need a place to not be Catherine Avery... To not be decisive, set agendas and rise to the level of accomplishments that the world has come to expect of you. You need a place to fall apart. I will be that place...should you require it, in perpetuity. 

martes, junio 30, 2015

3 días

 Une immense espérance a traversé la terre 
 Une immense espérance a traversé ma peur 

miércoles, abril 01, 2015

último

me habria gustado que fueras aquel por el que caí. somos tan distintos que creo que jamás entenderé algunas cosas, quizás dps de todo soy un ser extraño. me consumiste hasta la casi deshidratación y tus oidos sordos solo lo hicieron peor, pero no cargo odios ni resentimientos. solo una cosa me quedó en el tintero ya que dijiste no cortar sanamente. pero no son tus inentendibles metas. te fue tan fácil cómo tus acciones lo demostraron? yo nunca desenraicé nada con tal facilidad. y solo por aclarar lo que jamás dps de tanto tiempo de ww hubiera pensado necesario, con vos, solo con vos, te aseguro, nunca fui determinante. mi voluntad habría sido tuya. solo tenías que lograr que te creyera. y disculpá mi soberbia, pero si realmente me conociste entenderás que dudo que vuelva a sucederte en tal fuerza, pureza y pasión, pues nadie te habría odiado como te odié, si no te hubiera amado como yo te amé. maybe I wasn't the most romantic girl, but I really meant every love word I whispered into your ear and every kiss goodnight.

valkiria

el alma me regresa, incomparable e indescriptible sensación. efímera, momentánea, adictiva. 

viernes, enero 09, 2015

todo a veces parece mentira

 Y una vez más me pregunto... ¿qué pasaría si las/mis/tus resistencias hubieran cedido/ cedieran? 

 Si tan solo pudiera apagar mi mente y arrancarme el alma... el tiempo pasa y hay cosas que sigo sin entender.  

martes, diciembre 30, 2014

viernes, noviembre 28, 2014

bound

I guess that only I can save me from myself

batter

-They said: "blame yourself till you can't get anymore. It'll get easier to let go and get yourself off the hook." I've never really understood it.
-Me neither  

miércoles, noviembre 26, 2014

one of a kind

Lo más dificil es tratar de descifrar a dónde van a parar la incondicionalidad absoluta y la unidad que uno sabía reales. A veces pareciera mentira. 

domingo, noviembre 09, 2014

It

hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts .


sábado, octubre 18, 2014

La felicidad de la Ignorancia


Cáncer:
El cáncer es una enfermedad provocada por un grupo de células que se multiplican sin control y de manera autónoma, invadiendo (la palabra que lo describe perfecto) localmente y a distancia a otros tejidos. Pura biología, tan fría como el cuerpo caliente del ratón que yace muerto y abierto frente a vos en la mesada. Uno de cientos. Uno de miles. Uno de millones. ¿Millones para uno? SI. Cientos de miles de millones para uno. ¿Ética? No. Humano, ratón, no importa. Darwin me dijo que ninguno está tan lejos del otro como creían. Solo decime a quien hay que matar porque la ética solo existe cuando no viste de cerca a la parca.

Siguiente parrafo:
La malignidad del cáncer es variable, (por supuesto). Anotamos en cuadernos, libros llenos de palabras como: metástasis, P53, apoptosis, P21, Genética I, II, Toxicología, Citogenética, enzimas y más proteinas. Genes, Genes, Genes. Todo está en los genes. Epigenético o no, son Todo. ¿Ambiente? Por supuesto. Pobre Lamark.
El cancer depende de la agresividad de sus células y demás características biológicas de cada tipo tumoral, aunque siempre, siempre, te va a terminar sorprendiendo. Mientras que muchos mueren en cuerpo, algunos lo hacemos todavía en alma y quedamos remanentes en la Tierra porque no logramos ver la vida en otros colores. ¿Somos realistas, instrumentalistas o religiosos?. 
 Las batas blancas se abranzan, brindan y lloran de alegría mientras ven su nombre en la tapa de una revista y las bolsas rojas se van llenando de latex con sangre. La frialdad nos fascina, los dibujos de la tiza y las proyecciones virtuales ante nuestros ojos nos quitan el sueño. La dicotomía de existir en ambos universos. Pasar de lo frio y apasionante a la consciencia que te golpea en la cara dejandotela violeta. ¿Y qué haces ahi? Obviamente pensás en cómo la sangre se acumula en tu ojo morado y los capilares rotos tratan de ser cicatrizados, pero el dolor te desenfoca y caes de rodillas sobre el suelo. El dolor es quien nos lleva de vuelta a la Tierra y separa con una tela fina de seda a la Ciencia de nuestras Almas para que dancemos de un lado al otro de manera más segura.


RJD.

miércoles, octubre 15, 2014

sábado, octubre 04, 2014

domingo, septiembre 14, 2014

who is the lamb and who is the knife?

Here I am, a rabbit hearted girl
frozen in the headlights
It seems I've made the final sacrifice

This is a gift, it comes with a price
Who is the lamb and who is the knife?
Midas is king and he holds me so tight
and turns me to gold in the sunlight

I must become a lion hearted girl
ready for a fight
before I make the final sacrifice

And in the spring I shed my skin
and it blows away with the changing wind
The waters turn from blue to red
as towards the sky I offer it,
this is a gift

lo que se piensa y no se dice, lo que se escribe y no se muestra, lo que se siente y no se expresa... se hace cada vez mas difícil y te va comiendo por dentro


lunes, marzo 24, 2014

lunes, marzo 03, 2014

torn

I thought I saw a man brought to life,
he was warm, he came around like he was dignified,
he showed me what it was to cry.
Well you couldnt be that man I adored,
you don't seem to know, don't seem to care what your heart is for,
but I don't know him anymore.
There's nothing where he used to lie,
my conversation has run dry,
that's what's going on, nothings fine Im torn

Im all out of faith, this is how I feel,

I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor.
Illusion never changed into something real,
Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn.
You're a little late, Im already torn...

viernes, enero 24, 2014

There’s nothing left but emptiness, it’s all been said and done

I was staring in the shadow just to understand your pain,
but when I needed you the most you looked the other way.

I wanted you to comfort me in the moment we had begun,

I loved you through your nothingness
Am I still the one?

Though broken, my heart still beats, it will not stop

Caution the floor's wet in here been crying,
Don't leave me,
please believe me, oh!
Baby there is,
I can explain ...
Please love me ,
Please need me, oh...
But, though broken, my heart still beats, it will not stop. 

like a tattoo

Try to tell you no 
but my body keeps on telling you yes
Try to tell you stop
but your lips got me so out of breath
I'll be waking up in the morning probably hating myself,
and I'll be waking up feeling satisfied
but guilty as hell

But baby there you go again
there you go again making me love you
Baby I stopped using my head
using my head let it all go
Now you're stuck on my body
on my body like a tattoo
And now I'm feeling stupid
feeling stupid crawling back to you

So I cross my heart and I hope to die
That I'll only stay with you one more night
And I know I said it a million times,
but I'll only stay with you one more night

miércoles, diciembre 25, 2013

stranger



I gave you all of seven years,
we entwined our teens,
I shared my thoughts and bed with you,
synchronizing our dreams.
No one knew me better then,
I'm sure, no one ever could.
But lust has made a joke of me,
taking all that was good.

You walked past me the other day,
you met my eyes and looked away.
How can someone I used to know so well now be
a stranger to me?

jueves, diciembre 19, 2013

wild one

I know, I've seen you when I wake up
A daydream recurring, that I cannot stop
You are heavy on the heart, and you're heavy on my mind
The silence between us leaves me walking blind
When you hold me still, my heart weights a ton
Trying not to get greedy, that's not easily done

miércoles, marzo 13, 2013

poeme

Si siempre intentas ser normal, nunca descubrirás lo EXTRAORDINARIA que puedes llegar a ser. 


Maya Angelou.

jueves, marzo 07, 2013

What do you do when you know something's bad for you but you still can't let go?



I was naive, your love was like candy
Artificially sweet, I was decieved by the wrapping,
Got caught in your web but I learned how to bleed,
I was PREY in your bed and devoured completely...

I should have known that I was used for amusement 
Couldn't see through the smoke, it was all an illusion
Now I've been licking my wounds, but the venom seeps deeper
We BOTH can seduce, but darlin you hold me prisoner...

Oh, I'm about to BREAK, I can't stop this ache,
I'm addicted to your allure, and I'm fiending for a cure
Every step I take, leads to one mistake
I keep going right back to the one thing that I need
I can't mend, this TORN state I'm in, getting nothing in return
what did I do to deserve? the pain of this slow burn
and everywhere I turn, I keep going right back to the one thing that I need to walk away from...

Every time I try to GRASP for AIR, I am smothered in despair it's never over, over
Seems I'll never wake from this nightmare, I let out a silent prayer
Let it be over, OVER
Inside I'm screaming, BEGGING, pleading no more...

Now what to do?, my heart has been bruised, so sad but it's true
Each BEAT reminds me of you...

It hurts my soul, cause I can't let go 
all these walls are caving in, I can't stop my suffering 
I hate to show that I've lost control cause I,
I keep going right back to the one thing that I need Oh, 
I'm about to BREAK, I can't stop this ache
I'm addicted to your allure, and I'm fiendin' for a cure
Every step I take, leads to one mistake
I keep goin right back to the one thing that I need 
Oh I can't mend this torn state I'm in, getting nothing in return 
what did I do to deserve? the pain of this slow burn,
And everywhere I turn I keep going right back to the one thing that I need to walk away from...

lunes, marzo 04, 2013

Through the crowd I was crying out, and in your place there were a thousand other faces I was disappearing in plain sight, heaven help me, I need to make it right

you are the hole in my head
you are the space in my bed
you are the silence in between 

what I thought and what I said

you are the night time fear
you are the morning when it's clear
when it's over you're a start
you're my head, you're my heart...

No light, no light in your bright blue eyes.
I never knew daylight could be so violent...
A revelation in the light of day,
you can't choose what stays and what fades away...

Edgar Allan Poe


For taking me to everywhere... (1809-1849)




jd

just edgar


sábado, marzo 02, 2013

as usual, sis's wisdom

si para recobrar lo recobrado debí perder primero lo perdido, si para conseguir lo conseguido tuve que soportar lo soportado, si para estar ahora enamorado fue menester haber estado herido, tengo por bien sufrido lo sufrido, tengo por bien llorado lo llorado. Porque después de todo he comprobado que no se goza bien de lo gozado sino después de haberlo padecido. Porque después de todo he comprendido que lo que el árbol tiene de florido vive de lo que tiene sepultado... 

sis's truth

el secreto de la felicidad esta en CAER en las tentaciones...

revenge fury


-That's not the way, you know that. The'll just kill you too.
-You don't understand, do you? Everything I've done, all my trainning was to save my sister. I've failed her.
-Just because you didn't save Coleen it doesn't mean that you can't honor her. You know, we'll have to aproch this with a clear head.
-Well, I'm sorry if I'm not as cold and calculated as you. I can't turn my feelings on and off with the flick of a switch.
-Is that what you think? That I don't feel? That I don't miss my father every single day? That I don't mourn the life that I could have had. But that's why people like you and me fight. Because it gives us something to live for when everything else has been taken away. I thought you understood that... I thought we share that...(brething) .
-We can do this together. Don't go. Aiden don't leave me alone in this. Aiden!

Caroline and Klaus


-If you dont feed me your blood, I will die. 
-Then you will die. And Tyler would have learn his leasson the hard way.
-How can you do this to him? to me...
-I'm a thousand years old, call it boredom.
-I dont believe you.
-Fine, then maybe it's because I'm pure evil and I can't help myself.
-No. It's because you're hurt, wich means that is a part of you that's human.
-How can you posssibly think that?
-Because  I 've seen it. Because I've caught myself wishing I could forget all the horrible things that you've done.
-But you can't, can you?
-I know that you are in love with me and anybody capable of love is capable of being save.
-You're alucinating.
-I' guess I'll never known.

you are not invited to the other side of sanity


You're so hypnotising
Could you be the devil, could you be an angel
Your touch, magnetizing
Feels like I am floating, leaves my body glowing

You're from a whole 'nother world
A different dimension
You open my eyes
And I'm ready to go, lead me into the light

Kiss me
Infect me with your love and fill me with your poison
Take me
Wanna be your victim, ready for abduction
Boy, Boy you're an alien, your touch so foreign
It's supernatural, extraterrestrial

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